I freaking DID IT!

I RAN 2 MILES NON STOP!!!!

 

I mean that amaze balls to me!

 

I ran without stopping! Ok I stopped once cause my leg itched but it was like a .2 second stop and then it was right back on that treadmill.

 

I use to be a runner in High School. I could out run my Husband and thats saying something cause he ran track and he was super good. Not so good at long distance but man he was fast. And I could beat him.

 

I want to get back to that. I want my husband to utter the words "You can beat me any time cause thats the most attractive thing in the world" to me again. He use to say this every time I beat him at runner and I would say "Im so sorry I beat you Honey.... NOT!"  and he would reply with that statement. I LOVED hearing it. I no longer can out run him so obviously its stopped. I never thought I would miss him saying it.

 

So 2 miles today, maybe 2.5 miles tomorrow =)

 

My Hubby's been gone for almost 2 weeks now and I miss him like crazy. He is my rock. He has been supporting me like crazy during my weight loss journey and not being able to talk to him is driving me banana's! Like I wanted to call him and tell him about my 2 miles, but I cant, I wanted to call him and tell him I lost another 2lbs but I cant. I want to just hear his voice.

 

To be able to lose weight you have to first want it for yourself, but after you find the motivation for yourself you can want it for other things too. Like I want to lose weight for me, to be a better wife to my husband, to be able to play with my kids (ok and to not be the FAT mom) and to wear super cute clothes and share clothes with my sister again.

 

I have lost 22lbs and I am ready for the rest of this weight to leave my body.

 

But I know it takes time just like it took me 2 freaking months to be able to run 2 miles straight. So weight loss is a slow journey but I wouldn't change it and I wont quit until Im healthy and even once Im healthy I know you have to keep going every day and make the right choices.

My Baby Girl

My little lady is 15 months old!!

 

Um excuse me while I try to figure out where the past 15 months have gone!!

 

It seriously goes by so fast.

 

I mean how did she go from this

 

 

To This??

 

 

 

And how did her hair go from dark brown to...



 

 

 

To this blond crazy mess?

 

 

 

I just cant believe how fast she is growing up!

 

I mean how did she go from this...

 

To this??

 



 

These past few months have flown by and I have loved every second of it! She has turned into such a little person.

She is talking, walking, running, yelling, just being Tenley.

Her vocabulary has exploded this month.

She can say:

Mama

Dada

Rora(Aurora)

Bubba

Broder(brother)

Thank you

more

All done

Please

Ball

Again

Go

No

Yes

Bye Bye

Nigh Nigh

Sleepy

Bath

And prob more that I just cant think of right now. She is finally grasping signs. We have been working on signs since 4 months old and she only got done all done. Finally she has got on and started using please, thank you, more, and one other.

She got her very first cold ever and is the happiest sick baby I have ever met. lol

She has 9 teeth. Which sounds like a lot but seriously she has no teeth. She has her Vampire teeth, and 3 bottom teeth. Thats it! No top middle teeth or anything. Its crazy.

The doctor wants her to go to the Dentist to get them checked out and make sure theres nothing wrong.

She is such a little dare devil. She loves heights and loves to be thrown and is already trying to climb out of her crib. She's crazy!

We also jumped on the cloth diapering band wagon this month. So far so good. I think I want to try a couple different brands but I suppose that defeats the purpose of eventually saving money. lol

 

 

 

 

 

Clothes

So I've been having trouble with my clothes lately. NOTHING FITS!!

 

Which wouldn't make any sense because as I lose weight I should be able to get back into old clothes that use to fit me.

 

Well that's the problem.

 

I have never been this size. I am 7lbs away from being at my weight before I got preggo with Ten. Which means those pants and such are still a size too small.

 

But all the clothes I bought after having Ten are falling off of me!

 

Like literally its so bad that I bent over and my whole butt fell outta my pants.

 

I sat down and there was so much fabric bunched up that it looked horrible.

 

When I went from sitting to standing my jeans would all bunch up and it looked like I had creepy things growing out of my legs.

 

I know this should make me happy.

 

My CLOTHES DON'T FIT. But on the flip side my "skinny" clothes don't fit either. Im kinda in a la la land.

 

So today I went to a bday party in those too tight pants and felt horrible about myself the whole time. I should have worn my fat falling off of my body pants cause at least then I would have been comfortable.

 

I really want to go shopping but I really want to get to a certain weight before I start to buy smaller things. I still feel like the 20lb heavier girl I was 6 weeks ago.

 

Losing weight is s serious mental game. You cant just lose weight and not get emotional. You have to deal with your emotions, learn to control your urges, learn how to love yourself.

 

Its one of the hardest things Ive done. Im going to keep doing it, obviously, I still have a lot of weight to lose but days like this make me wonder why Im doing it. If after losing 20lbs I still feel horrible about myself. What is the point of all that hard work?

 

I guess the point is to keep doing it until all that hard work is worth it, until you can finally love yourself and not feel judged by others, when you can put on your skinny clothes and love the way you look.

 

I cant wait for the day =)

A little CRAZY

Ok I go TOTALLY crazy over decorating for the holiday. If you think my fall decor is bad wait till Christmas. It will look like my house threw up Christmas.

 

So here is my version of Fall in my house =)

 

 Made this at MOPS a few years ago and still love it

 Thank you pinterest. I would have never ever thought to use popcorn as decoration

 I am in love with little scarecrows and candles. Oh and of course we have to have the candy corn out. My children go to this dish often. Marcus can reach it but Ten will stand in front of it doing the "more" sign waiting for someone to give her one.

 I have fallen in love with having a shelf behind out couch. I have no clue what we did before that. So I am loving decorating it with every new season

 Is this not the weirdest thing you have ever seen in your LIFE!! I have never seen a pumpkin like this until my husband found it at the pumpkin patch. I told him I wanted some little pumpkins for decorations so my husband goes and searches for mini pumpkins and comes back with a ton of minis and this.

 Once again Thank you Pinterest! Their idea was use a wine glass and place a candle on top with something in the glass and I LOVE it (BTW that pumpkin on the end was on the pumpkins my husband found and I think it is so weirdly shaped and I love it)

 

Our version of a front porch. One day we will have one and until then I will decorate my tiny area =) And yes I know our pumpkins are all kinda miss matched. But I told Marcus and Ten to pick their own and the one in the far left corner is Marcus, the tiny one up front is Ten's and you can guess mine and the Hubs.

 



I DID IT!!

I finally lost 20lbs!!

 

I feel like it took forever but really it was only 6 weeks.

 

I feel accomplished!

 

I actually lost 21lbs but whos counting... oh wait I am haha

 

I am 6lbs away from pre Tenley weight! Woot!

 

I am still 33lbs  away from pre Marcus weight! No woot!

 

So still have work to do but I am super happy and really looking forward to my phase 2 goal.

 

Lose 20 more pounds

 

Which you can do the math, that's still not pre Marcus weight but then I would be 13lbs away.

 

Then the final phase, Phase 3, lose another 20lbs.

 

That would be 60lbs and I would weigh what I did when I got married.

 

I always told myself I wouldn't be that wife that let herself go once I got married and thats kinda what happened. To be able to fit in my wedding dress would be HUGE! Its a HUGE goal of mine, no not cause Im ever gonna wear it but because I never want to weigh what I weigh now again and that wedding dress is serious motivation.

And of course I cant leave without a pic of my 20lb difference. I dont see much difference but Chris swears he does.

 

 

So here's to Phase 2 =) Lets hope it goes just as well as phase one and doesn't take me till next year. HAHA

If you fall off get right back on

SO.......

 

 

This week I sooooo fell off the band wagon. The losing weight band wagon that is. I mean I work out every day except for Friday, Saturday and Sunday. But I ate SOOO badly. I blame the husband and him eating such yummy food and me wanting to enjoy yummy food too!

 

So today I still sit 19.5lbs lighter then 6 weeks ago. But my goal for this week is to get to that 20lb mark! Lots of clean eating and working out is in my future.

 

One of the nice things about Chris being gone (there are not many good things so I have to take the little things) is I don't have to make big dinners. I can eat little things like salad or cereal for dinner. I do so well all day and then dinner and that after dinner snack is what kills me. Iam going to try my hardest this week to do everything right and I hope and pray that I make it to the big 2-0!

 

My goal over Oct is to lose 8lbs. That may seem like an odd number but that would make my weight loss total 27lbs and I would be exactly at my pre pregnancy weight (for Ten, My pre pregnancy weight from Marcus is still 33lbs away) So 8lbs between now and when my Hubs comes home. Its 2.5lbs a week which is doable if I stick to a good diet and working out HARD! And of course Jillian Michael's workouts =)

 

So here's to a good week and hopefully at least a half pound weight loss!

 

Happy Monday!!

Our weekend

This weekend we had so much fun.

 

Saturday Marcus had his 3rd soccer game. We all now how the first one went. Well the second kinda went the same way. So I did not have high hopes for this game. But he did AMAZING! He even scored his first goal! Okay it was for the other team but I don't care! He did it and was so proud of himself and I think he's finally getting the hang of it.

 

Chris was suppose to be put on lock down for work on Sat and he called me Sat around noon to let me know he was going to come home until Monday! (Then he would be gone for 3 weeks) So I had already planned on taking the kids to the pumpkin patch but as soon as he told me he was going to make it I was super excited.

 

So once the kids woke up from their naps we headed to the pumpkin patch. We had so much fun between bouncing, playing on the playground, sliding down huge slides, picking pumpkins and eating yummy pumpkin ice cream. It was such a fun day and a day that will go in my favorite book =)

 

Here's some pictures of our day

 

Jumping on the HUGE bouncy thing they have

Marcus was kinda scared at first and just wanted to sit with me but eventually he loved it. Ten LOVED it and wanted me to let her go but it was very crowed and I was afraid of people knocking her down

WE LOVED THE SLIDE

Grandma and Ten =)

 

Chris will be home right before Halloween and I would love to take the kids back just to play again.

 

Marcus spent the night with Grandma so Chris and I went home put Ten to bed and were able to have some quiet time, we watched Titanic (Chris choice!!) haha

 

Sunday Ten, Chris, and I had a quiet day. Grandma wanted to keep Marcus till we came over for dinner. So we stayed in our jammies and pulled all the pillows into the living room and had a veg day. Ten LOVED it and so did I.

 

We had one of the BEST weekends ever. Im sad today knowing that Chris is now gone and we wont have another super good weekend till he comes home but its only 3 weeks and we have done MUCH MUCH more then this. I think we have gotten spoiled having him be home for 10 months!! =)

 

 

 

 



Jillian Michaels

The challenge this month

 

Do Jillian Michael's every day for a whole month in the month of October!

 

This sounds totally crazy to me! Because her workouts are totally crazy!!

 

But I'm gonna do it. I'm going to start today over the kiddos naps. I mean its 30 mins. How can you say no to a 30 min workout. But that's on top of my normal workout so I really think it might be really easy to say no. lol.

 

I really want to challenge myself this month and push myself to new levels. Working out twice a day everyday is going to be new levels for me.

 

Its not like I never workout twice a day. Heck I did it yesterday when I took a Fat Burner class and then went back and did some Zumba. But that I did that because I wanted to and felt great. Will I feel great every day... yea that would be a NO!

 

So here are my starting measurements before doing the 30 day shred

 

Hips: 44

Middle Waist: 34

Low Waist: 40

Right Leg: 26

Left Leg: 26

Right Arm: 14

Left Arm: 14

 

 

So there they are. Pitiful I know. You should have seen them when I was 19lbs heavier.

 

Yep you read that right 19lbs LOST! Just working on this last pound and then I will post about it and share pics =)